Let's back date this to yesterday - June 23, 2009.
I'm starting the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels for the umpteenth time. I've never gotten more than 6 days in a row before taking a day off. And once I take a day off, I justify another because I've already broken the 30 day chain. Then those 2 days turn into a week - and you get the idea.
I bought the DVD in January. I found myself many months post partum, no longer breast feeding, and suddenly weighing what I did at 9 months pregnant. Now, 6 months further down the road, I weigh even more than I did in January. Something has to change. I need to document this somewhere so I can feel accountable. I am doing this somewhat anonymously - although I know nothing is truly anonymous on line these days - because I am ashamed. I am ashamed of how I look. I am ashamed that I avoid looking in the mirror. I am ashamed of how my clothes fit. I am ashamed at my lack of motivation and lack of self-control. Something has to change.
Yesterday, Tuesday June 23rd, I started the 30 Day Shred. Again. I'm going to treat myself like an alcoholic: One Day at A Time.
Exercise: Shredded Level 1, Day 1
Breakfast - green beans, red potatoes, ham
Snack - celery, carrots, ranch dip
Lunch - chicken salad sandwich (made w/light mayo on whole wheat bread)
Snack - celery, carrots, ranch dip (made w/reduced fat sour cream)
Dinner - broiled fish, smashed potatoes, green beans, garlic toast
Snack - handful of peanut M&Ms
Overall, happy I exercised. Food choices weren't bad but weren't great. I shouldn't have had garlic toast or M&Ms.