Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Day 1, Take 37

Let's back date this to yesterday - June 23, 2009.

I'm starting the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels for the umpteenth time. I've never gotten more than 6 days in a row before taking a day off. And once I take a day off, I justify another because I've already broken the 30 day chain. Then those 2 days turn into a week - and you get the idea.

I bought the DVD in January. I found myself many months post partum, no longer breast feeding, and suddenly weighing what I did at 9 months pregnant. Now, 6 months further down the road, I weigh even more than I did in January. Something has to change. I need to document this somewhere so I can feel accountable. I am doing this somewhat anonymously - although I know nothing is truly anonymous on line these days - because I am ashamed. I am ashamed of how I look. I am ashamed that I avoid looking in the mirror. I am ashamed of how my clothes fit. I am ashamed at my lack of motivation and lack of self-control. Something has to change.

Yesterday, Tuesday June 23rd, I started the 30 Day Shred. Again. I'm going to treat myself like an alcoholic: One Day at A Time.

Exercise: Shredded Level 1, Day 1

Breakfast - green beans, red potatoes, ham
Snack - celery, carrots, ranch dip
Lunch - chicken salad sandwich (made w/light mayo on whole wheat bread)
Snack - celery, carrots, ranch dip (made w/reduced fat sour cream)
Dinner - broiled fish, smashed potatoes, green beans, garlic toast
Snack - handful of peanut M&Ms

Overall, happy I exercised. Food choices weren't bad but weren't great. I shouldn't have had garlic toast or M&Ms.


  1. So I don't know how but I came across your blog and read your very first post. I do the exact same thing you do. I'll be fine for a few days and the day I miss one day then I make an excuse for another day and so on. I really would like to stick to it for a whole 30 days and get the results every one has been raving about. I don't have a blog but if you want we can try to be virtual workout buddies and start this together and stick through it together??

  2. Glad I'm not the only one who struggles with that.

    And we can try being workout buddies in my comments here...I don't have many readers because I'm not really working to put this out there so feel free to stay in touch.